For the first time, in my entire adult life…
I feel like an adult. I didnt really feel grown when I moved out of my parents house at eighteen. I didnt feel grown when I got married, or when I got divorced. I didnt feel grown when I lost my ability to have children. Not the half a dozen homes I have established. Not when I was raising someone elses daughter. I didnt feel grown when I was a user, or when I got clean…
It is strange and probably the opposite of my general feminist sensibility, but I feel grown because I think for the first time in my life I have found my partner. I have plans. WE have plans. We live together. We are building a life together. Its amazing. I just… even at my age… for the first time I feel like a woman.
